End of DAY 1. Deleted Social Media
Well … All my washing is done….
Let the boredom begin!
Just like any addiction I assume there will be easy days and hard days….
I assume my brain will do all it can to get me to redownload the apps – I wonder what reasons it’ll try and make me believe in that I NEED IT – and HAVE to look …. Bloody addiction…..
I’m 44 years old and addicted to my phone / addicted to social media – I think I ‘need’ it for connection to people and work.…
I know I don’t … I know that’s addiction talking
I don’t ‘need’ social media like I need food or water …. It’s an ‘extra’ that’s now become too much and TAKING my life away from me!!!!
YouTube has been deleted, TikTok deleted, facebook deleted (last night) so I’ve had a full 24 hours now without it – yes I threw my toys out the pram and deleted through frustration… but all things have to start somewhere….
I’m keen to see what happens in my new boredom – the void – the space – the time I have now…
I normally fall asleep to some crappy YouTube I find – some crap I really don’t need in my head!!! Is Katie price really divorcing another man ?? – BRAIN ROT!!!! My phone then ends up between my bed and its frame in the morning where I’ve fallen asleep to some utter rubbish
I earnt £100-£150 max a month from social media platforms (YouTube and TikTok combined) which was ‘locking me in’ – I earn a real income from my ‘proper’ job and I don’t need the jail of thinking “I earn money from social media” – it’s a daily trap that I want out of.
I want to let go of the daily posts – the daily video making as I want my life back. It’s not worth the time, effort or comment section……it’s just not worth it – it’s ‘taking’ from my life NOT ADDING!!! I’m losing hours and hours and hours of my life!!! I’m not living!!!!
Recently the people in charge of AI said it’s possible that super intelligence could make the human species extinct by the end of the decade…. That hit home …. Do I REALLY want to scroll with the time I have left on the planet – do I really want to make videos for strangers who sometimes attack me in the comment section – do I make the videos for them…? Do I make the videos because I’m trying to relieve my own boredom…. Do I make videos to help people or help myself…. ? Or has it become just a crappy habit and a jail to make £100 a month – A MONTH!!!!! A daily video for £100 a month… 31 days of work….. making it – editing it – worrying about it – responding to comments good and back about it – checking on it – checking on it again – watching it – listening to it – responding to it – thinking of the next video…. Making it – editing it … blah blah blah – £100 a MONTH…. 31 days for £100 – hours and hours and hours …..
It’s ‘taking’ from me …..it not ‘giving’
And as for YouTube…. I’m confused – everyone is the expert. Who do i listen to? How do I get my blood sugar down – one person says ‘this’ and another says ‘that’…. Then 100 other people have other opinions….their experiences- their ‘no’s’ their ‘yes’s’
NEWS says AI will kill us all by the end of the decade if not controlled in some way and the algorithm has me on that – every news channel available shown to me with the same message….
Does this mean my phone and interaction with it could literally kill me….. food for thought …
I need a break – a big long break…. If I really only had 3.5 years left – do I want to scroll – do I want to make videos – do I want to be looking at my phone instead of going out with my kids or boyfriend or friends?????
I don’t NEED social media to live – I have my job and my money without it …. I don’t NEED it like food and water……
I can get rid of it….. (I think…. I hope….) I ‘can’ physically get rid of it – I just must do it … I need to learn a new way of living ….
What else can I ‘do’ in life then…
What do other people who don’t have social media do with their lives …
What was life like before social media? what did I before before facebook, YouTube and TikTok…?
How do I fill the void – the space….theres more ‘time’ I can feel it already…..
How do I accept and cope with the addiction coming up with many excuses of why I need to redownload all apps….
I must follow my own story and read my own flipping blog! Good days and bad days….record it all and see what happens to me….
24 hours in …. All my washing is done…. That’s nice…..that’s nice…… erm….. what next… I’m bored.
I’ve started a blog to record my deletion of social media – I’m clearly addicted so want to blog this for my own understandings and records
I’ve let go of other powerful influences in my life before… alcohol 7 years in December. Smoking 20 years – a very toxic relationship over 5 years free – I KNOW I have the capabilities of releasing this addiction- I just need to find a new life…
The AI people said AI can destroy us all by the end of the decade. That’s less than 3.5 years…
If I was to die in less than 3.5 years would I really want to scroll……
No – of course not. I’d want to live….!!
So
What now……
There’s ‘another way surely’
This is my personal blog of giving up social media ….
Today went like this….
6am – coffee
6.30 – kids woke – showers, breakfast – school run
10am I went to work. Worked hard and well – I’m proud of my effort
I ate reasonably well and healthily all day but did eat too much chocolate and drank maple syrup at the end of the day … I’m a working progress……Considered buying a holiday for me and the kids in the half term but not sure….. do I spend money like this…. Should I be careful or do I do this to ‘live’ more?!
School run at 3pm and gave lifts to my son’s friend.
4pm Made sure my son did his homework
4.15pm did a 15 mins static bike ride to look after my leg muscles
4.30pm gave my son a lift to get his bike from his dads so he could do a bike ride with his friends
6pm Made a good dinner for my kids – easy but decent.
Evening – made word-press blog to capture my journey. Spent the night sorting it! (addiction looking for alternatives…..???)
Made sure kids went to bed – washed their teeth and hung up their school clothes
First 24 hours – not bad…. Let’s see what now happens
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